_jealousy is on my heart & my mind now.. too many girls love him.. and i can't blame them.. he is so hott & handsome.. sometimes, i feel like killing each and every girl who love john cena in this world... but i can't... number one it's a crime & number two, they have a freedom on who they want to love & who to hate... even on the facts & anything about him... gusto ko ako lang nakakaalam... i'm just so selosa over him! acting like he is my boyfriend! even the merchandise, i just saw a girl sporting the cap of john cena.. and i was like.. "who the heck is this girl? she have that & me?, wala?!" arrggh... i just want to snatch the cap over her head & run... if i do that, damn.. i was a psycho!
_"masabi lang na nakapunta ka ng araneta, manood ka nalang sa tv!"
_that line still ringing in my head! hatred to that person who told me that! people just don't understand the importance of that show to me... freaking' life! damn! you know, i did everything to be on the show... and that what she had to say!?! she didn't know the difference of tv & araneta! ** and i still don't know if it will be aired!*** damn! makitid ang utak! it really hurt me.... i don't what's gotten to my mind.. i was speechless & smiling to her when she said that... no reaction at all! i'm so stupid! arrggghhh!
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