_why do pipol always come & then eventually, they will go?!.. i keep on asking myself why,.. are they supposed to give me happiness or pain? i feel so empty when someone wants to go & leaves me.. that's why, i hate leaving somebody because i know the pain they had in their hearts when someone close to their hearts wants to leave. i really, really hate it!!!
_i wanted to cry, i felt so left out.. i feel so, so empty inside. i wanted them to stay, but.. if the person wants to leave, then go ahead.. they have their own lives, and i had mine. if they don't enjoy my accompany, then leave. i just want them to be happy, whoever they chose to be with them. even if it's killing inside. i have to accept the fact that, there will be always be a goodbyes in every hellos.. all i have are the memories we spent together.. just.. MEMORIES.. bitter & sweet memories..
_i just hope, one day.. one day, they will feel the way i am feeling right now because of them.. thanks guyzZz! even though, i know you have no time reading my blog.. s0 dramatic!!! ='c
hope ur happy right now! =D
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Wednesday, November 15, 2006
_i never thought that i will experience this kind of thing. i was really so confused right now!! maybe, he's perfect.. all the qualities i want 4 a guy..!. but.. the problem is.. hayy! xbra! nakakadepress! everytime na nkikita/mffil q na depress xa, la aqng masisi qndi sarili q.. but he keep on telling me.. xa daw my kasalanan.. ginus2 niang f0l sken.. pero di mu nmn maalis sken na i'm one of the reason qng bket xa ngkkganyan. dhil sa isang kagaguhan nming pingggawa..shiit! ayan na! natutuliro na kami preh0.. haii.. if only.. mbigay q qng anung gus2 nia.. ginawa q na, mtgal na! xobrang tgal na sana! kaso,.. argghh! basta my reas0n!!.. kea la aqng choice but t0 stay as friends nlng sknya.. cguro, un na lang ung best way para mtpos n2ng kalokohan nt0.. s0brang hirap.. why kxe xa pa?! sobrng ngguilty aq.. nkkaasar.. yoq my nasasad dhil sken.. haii.. yoq na! =c
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Sunday, November 05, 2006
grabe.. todong pasakit.. nkakaasar.. it was crushed, broken, bruised, dead..! hayy grbe! hirap sobra ayoko ng mabuhay!! kung pwede nga itulog mu na lng to.. tpos, paggising mu wala na.. kung ganun lang un kadali.. kaso problem pa, he is my first thought in the morning.. hayy.., sana my machine tlga like dun sa movie na "eternal sunshine for the spotless mind".. tlgang bibili aq nun,,
di qna lam ggawin q.!
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